It makes more sense to hide yourself away
somewhere alone, and not waste so much goddamn time
with keep your head up, chin up, meditate, and hold on, and smile, deep breath
look/wish/dream of a hand to hold and hold on…
It makes more sense to go and purge, just feel stupid
and let the damn tears down.
Perhaps then the rest of your vacation, your day, your life can begin, again, take your finger off the pause
and feel neither pity or shame or guilt or pain and no one has to know.
and no one has to know how much time you wasted, again
but there is nowhere to hide
not one place to run
when you’re a mum.